Hey there guys.. or the zero people who are reading.
#REALISTICAF
You may notice that.. well.. I kinda sorta abandoned this blog, just like the one I used to share with my best friend.
I think I have a habit for abandoning blogs but it isnt my fault because I always forget.. lol oops.
Its September.. as you may or may not know, September 2015. I havent wrote a blog post since
December, December 2014. The reason im remembering this blog is because im in the Christmas
spirit, take the time to realize its September. Its September and ive already put Christnas lights in
my room and my mini Christmas tree. I know, I know, I probably have some sort of Christmas
problem but I really cant help it. All the Christmas Yankee candles ive been smelling in the shops, the Christmas hauls and videos ive been watching on YouTube, etc. It just makes me feel so so
warm and Christmassy inside. Im going to open up about something now, im not sure how, but I
will. I have depression. Not the serious kind where you feel the need to cut, but the kind that isnt
that easy to recognize, the symptoms dont show very effectively. The main symptom is that you
feel like sometimes you shouldnt exist. And how little different the world would be without you.
I havent told this to any of my friends, though ill probably tell them about this blog eventually and
they will read this. By friends I mean like, best friends. I dont mind them knowing at all, infact it
would probably feel good to open up to them about it. But somehow I cant, and once they will see
this. I wont be able to talk with them about it because somehow writing down something for someone
to read is much easier than to have a conversation. Im like the shy kid in the class, not the shyest, but
quite shy on bad days. On what I consider good days, I can answer a few questions the teacher asks
me, and talk with some of the boys in my class. And it feels good to communicate and laugh with
them. There is only one friend who is a boy that I can talk to on bad days. The reason im not the
person for public communication is because I start picturing the worst scenario in my head, not like,
an asteroid crushing us to death, but like, the person not understanding me or telling me im wrong or ignoring me or something. This is quite a long blog post and I could go on forever but im perfectly fine. I can laugh and talk with my friends and family fine and it isnt severe and most of the time I can think of reasons why I belong on the world. It just sucks sometimes, on bad days, thats all. But im fine, im happy :) Back to Christmas, lol. This is basically going to be a blog where I blog about Christmas, my favourite thing ever. I really would hate life though if it was Christmas everyday,
all I want is for it to be Christmas season like November-December all year round, and for everyone
to love each other and be happy about it being the Christmas season. But anyway, before this blog post gets too long, id like to say two things.
1. The bad grammar is on purpose.. lol oops.
2. If you ever feel sad or lonely remember a piece of trash loves you with all her heart and soul,
(Im the piece of trash lol because my life consists of Ariana Grande, Christmas, Social Media
and friends of family yep im a piece of trash)
and so so so so soooo many other people love you with their heart and soul too :)
I love you,
Girl online going offline.
(Zoella af am i right?)

Okay, 
So I know I was supposed to blog everyday
But now its been a week lmao.
I'm sorry but I was just so busy.
December is the month when I almost have no free time. During to Christmas stuff.
Also we had like 5 assessment tasks and I had to prepare for them too.
I cannot promise you a blog post every day, or week.
So I may re-arrange this blog into a really fun one with a random topic when I have time.
I'm sorry if you were expecting a blog post everyday.
I truly am.
But yeah.
ILY♥

Forgive me :)

Hey guys!
Its the 2nd of December! 
I was supposed to start this blog on the 1st but I was busy, so i'm starting it now.
I really love blogging and I really wanted to create a new blog.
I don't go on my old blogs anymore and I kind of abandoned them anyways.
This is going to be a Christmas blog where I will pick a Christmas topic then give my opinion about it every day until the 25th!
For example:
December 7th Topic - Gingerbread Men
I really love gingerbread men!
They are amazing!
What do you think?
And so on...
After December I will do a haul and show you guys what I got.
I don't think this blog will get very popular but oh well.
I hope you like my posts and my topics!
I love you! x